Stop trying. Honestly just stop.
I really shouldn’t be trying to change what people think of me, it’s honestly going to get worse. I really shouldn’t be trying to open up and expand where I hang out and rp, I should just stick with what and who I know can stand to be around me. I really shouldn’t try to attract more views to my gallery with fanart because more views means more fodder to people that’ll either rip off what original things I have or make a farce out of it. I really shouldn’t try selling my artwork because let’s face it, I can’t give it away without someone taking offense to it.
This year has been stressful. I’ve entertained some pretty terrible thoughts and go to bed feeling miserable, hated, and alone. I wake up with headaches and spend a lot of time on things that really won’t amount to anything. This is supposed to be a great time of the year so I’m going to abandon futile efforts to improve and just cling on to what I have that does keep me sane.
Still. Kind of a bummer that we didn’t get raptured away. I’d love to put the planet and most of its people behind me. An eternity without having to feel constant eyes on your back would be amazing.
